Moments of Musing

6 months ago…

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Six months ago, this week turned out to be one of the most eventful weeks ever. On Monday, I made the move to Chicago. I was nervous, excited, anxious, scared. But I hugged and kissed my dad “see you later” and boarded the plane with my mom anyway. I didn’t know more than a handful of people here. I didn’t know my co-workers-to-be. I was not familiar with Chicago. But I made the move here anyway. 

On Thursday and Friday, I was sworn-in as an attorney and at my job. It was the proudest I’ve ever felt. To know all of my hard work finally really paid off. To know all of my tear-filled nights were for naught.  I was nervous and even a bit afraid about what my job would be like. I was nervous about the big responsibility I would have. Heck, I there are days when I’m still nervous or afraid. But I do it anyway. 

And then on Friday of that week I flew out to Las Vegas with my mom to meet Tim, my family and friends. He’d been acting a bit odd leading up to my arrival so I wasn’t sure what was going on. Less than six hours later I realized why that had been–because he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him later than night/in the wee hours of the morning. 

Getting engaged was exciting and emotional. I’d dreamt of and imagined getting engaged to him for a while but I’d be lying if I didn’t tell you that a part of me was and is nervous. Would I lose my independent identity once married? No more tv to myself, no more eating chocolate for dinner, no more napping every afternoon/evening after work … I am nervous because I’ve never been married. I’ve never been a wife–but I’m more excited than anything because I love Tim more than I could ever write in a blog post. Because I know a life with him will be a heck of a lot of fun, and fulfilling, and loving. Because we’ll learn what it’s like to be married and figure it out together. We’ve encountered a lot of obstacles together and we’ve helped each other push through each of them. I have no doubt we’ll do the same when married. I know it won’t be all rainbows and butterflies but I am more than ready to live life together together.  


Six months ago, this week was my “scariest” week yet. It was also my most exciting and the best one I’ve experienced. It’s been one heck of an amazing adventure since. 


About Jacqueline Hernandez Lewis

Featured on Associated Press as a trailblazing Latina influencer and on Parents as a Latina mom to follow, Jacqueline Hernandez Lewis is a writer and content creator celebrating womanhood, motherhood and humanity. She also works for a NYC nonprofit dedicated to preventing domestic violence and promoting gender justice. Of all her roles, mom and wife are her favorite.

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