Moments of Musing

Shaun T + measuring tape

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During June and July of this summer I did much of nothing. Well, besides studying and working out to Rockin’ Body. After graduation I decided I had to get back into working out and eating healthy again. Being out of shape makes me pretty unhappy and -surprise, surprise!- I prefer to be happy. So I wore gym clothes basically every day of those two months as a motivator.
Here are pictures of me from August 2012 and July 2013:

It always amazes me when even the littlest differences can be shown in non-revealing clothing, such as this comfy dress. When I recently put it on, I felt a difference so I looked back at my old photo in it and sure enough, it was a bit more snug then. Needless to say, I’ve never been a bigger fan of Shaun T’s and I’ve probably never been prouder of my dedication and results. 

Though I’ve only lost around 6 pounds this summer (known thanks to my weigh-in at Monday’s doctor’s appointment), I am 5’2″ so it makes a bit of a difference and I’ve been getting stronger so I focus on the number on the scale less. Plus, my waist is about 2″ smaller and that makes me happier than any number on the scale… I actually measure myself every couple days rather than weigh myself to hold myself accountable. I do that because I used to find myself obsessing over my weight too much regardless of the results I was seeing. 

These days I have a healthier body image and I sincerely think it’s because I’ve changed my attitude regarding my body acceptance and being in shape. Shaun T’s workouts and my measuring tape method have been helpful in getting me to this point. 

Now, I’m off to get my work out on!

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A sister is a forever friend

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I have a cousin whom I refer to as my sister. Trish.
 
 
 
Technically she is my cousin. But she’s really my sister. Have I confused you? Well, she is the daughter of my aunt and uncle (whom I refer to as my second parents because they are amazing) but she is an only child and we were raised pretty similarly to how sisters are raised. We matched outfits all. the. time. We buy each other “sisters” cards during special occasions. We got our first tattoos together. We’re best friends.  
 
We’ve always been two peas in a pod – where one went, the other would go.
 
Except I went away to college and that was hard. But we knew I’d be coming back for summers and permanently in 4 years after I graduated. In a few weeks, though, I’m going away and I don’t really know what the future holds. The possibility of being apart for another few years makes me quite sad. 
 
I’ve never pictured post-college life spent away from Trish. 
 
But now, here we are, scrambling to fit in as much quality time as possible before I’m off again. Sometimes, I feel a tinge of guilt as if I’m abandoning my little sister. But I know I’m not. I’ll always come home, no matter what. And I will only be a Skype chat, phone call or text away. Just as our relationship grew closer during my college years, I hope it does so too across the distance that’s about to come in between us.  
 
Actually, I know it will.  
A sister is a forever friend. 
Forever means always remaining close, no matter how physically far apart we are. 
 
 
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Find the positive

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Oftentimes when I’m feeling inadequate, sad, or just plain pathetic, I am too hard on myself. I pick at all of the negatives. But when I’m done with my pity party for one, I look for the positives. 
 
For me, focusing on the positives was the most helpful while studying for the bar. While studying, I suffered some of my lowest lows, such as crying in the middle of Times Square alone and having people look at me, presumably worried about my wellbeing wondering what the heck happened. I was a bit of a mess. I wore only gym clothes for the month of July. I stepped outside, maybe, a handful of times. I thought I was on the verge of panic and anxiety attacks at times. I know I was not alone, though, as many of my peers went through emotional roller coasters, as well.
 
Now, I don’t know what the future holds. What I do know is that I gave it my all and it is now out of my hands. And there is positive in all of it. I was worked to my utmost intellectual ability. I put my 100% into something. 
 
Another positive of this was the reminder that I have the absolute BEST support system possible. Through my all tears and self-doubt, their faith in me did not waiver. Here are some ways my family and friends came to my rescue:
 
  T sent me a new cuddle buddy.

 
  My best friend Luana bought me uplifting prints, including this one of my favorite quotes.

T sent me a mug to drink coffee out of with cookies … and my brother brought home cookies later that day.

My dad bought me home 3 bags of DARK chocolate goodies.

I woke up one day to my index cards having been cut and organized by my mom, who also helped me study them every night.

P.S. I want to wish my mom a very happy birthday today! 
 
  My best friend from law school and I texted daily to whine reassure each other and uplift each other. And my loved ones were constantly reaching out to me to let me know they believed in me. That was probably the MOST helpful thing anyone could have done for me.

 
 Ultimately, God has a plan and I trust everything will work out the way it’s meant to.
 
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Lucky #25

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Thank you for all of the birthday love! I had one of the best birthdays. I celebrated in Atlantic City, NJ alongside my family and girlfriends. It was all planned by my cousin (who’s more like my little sister), Trish. The people in my life are the best. I’m a lucky girl. 

It’s a little weird saying that it was one of my best birthdays knowing Timmy wasn’t physically present to help me celebrate. But we skyped; he spoiled me with beauty supplies that I wanted – straightener, curling wand and a hair serum (after 2 1/2 years of flowers, jewelry and electronics, necessities are a big win-win!); and he also surprised me with these, which were given to me in AC…
Tim’s thoughtfulness has tremendously helped our relationship remain strong through the years and special occasions spent apart. He’s always with me in my heart. Plus, yesterday was my {hopefully} last birthday spent apart from him… FOREVER.

Cheers to all of that!!!

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It’s my birthday!

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So I’ll cry if I want to… No, no I won’t. No crying allowed today silly gooses! Today is a happy day 🙂  It’s technically my 25th birthday but if you have been following me, you know I celebrate life every day (as explained in this post)!
But hey, it is my day of birth, after all, so let’s celebrate with some music, shall we?


 



 

  P.S. I’m happy to report that I’m very excited to be 25 – no quarter-life crisis here… at the moment at least, phew!
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