And not happy about it. Especially because there were no palm trees lining the NYC streets like I’ve always wished there to be … and because school starts up again on Monday. California was really pretty, though. I enjoyed San Francisco but the LA area is definitely more my cup of tea.

I enjoyed being away… just as I always do. This vacation was a bit different than my last few, though. It was a family vacation. I still live at home, so you can imagine how rocky a family vacation can get. It started with some arguments on the way to the airport, at the airport, and when we arrived (woops!). But once we were there, it was great. I was pleasantly surprised. I am glad I got that family time, especially with my hardworking dad, because who knows how much longer I’ll be living at home. 

The vacation was also a nice distraction from missing T. He’s almost halfway through with his deployment. WHICH means that we are almost halfway to the best month of the year (for various reasons)! I miss him all the time. But I’ve become accustomed to the distance. Sometimes it’s overwhelming. Other times, it feels like I saw him yesterday. I guess Skype, FaceTime, email, the phone, Viber, and Pair have helped enormous amounts (the latter two especially during his deployment).

Also please note: this is only my second post. I created the blog a while ago but just kept on with my tumblr and forgot about this. I posted in July, but then I deleted it because, again, I thought tumblr was all I need. I now realize that I’d like a place to just put my words. I’m still keeping my tumblr, which has also helped with the distance, but I am going to try to continue blogging on here, as well.

That’s all for now. Goodnight!

Xo,
J

I’m writing today because tomorrow is the 4th of July. I wish I could say Timmy will be joining me at the beach. But he won’t be. He can’t. He’s on deployment. 

As sad as I am, though, I think we’ve grown so much stronger and closer this first month of deployment. We have to make an effort to communicate and I am so happy with the effort he’s put forth. He got a sim card for his cell phone (SO happy he did!) before reading my email telling him that I think Skype would do. So we speak often. He also told me about the application “Viber.” It’s AMAZING. We can now text and call FOR FREE when he’s connected to WiFi. 

You know, there’s a saying “you don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.” It’s so true. I cried and cried and cried on the last day of my visit before his deployment. Not out of fear that we wouldn’t work out but out of sadness that we wouldn’t be creating physical memories together for the next few months. I also didn’t want to think about not being able to see him until the end of the year. 

But looking at the big picture, at us being together forever has enabled me to be okay with it. We have so many memories ahead, so many laughs and kisses and fun times ahead. We have a lifetime of love ahead and I am so happy. 

I am in a happy place. I really have been since he walked into my life and for that I could never thank him enough.