As I was writing this, I had to stop one sentence in and stop pumping. The baby was hungry and S wanted something. Multitasking has become one of my best skills. I’ll be sure to update my resume with it.
A few days ago, I spoke with my mom over the phone and she asked me how the day was going. I probably told her something along the lines of “Oh, you know—crazy.” She replied something along the lines of, “Well that’s normal when you have two under two” while chuckling.
“I’ve traded a bit of my sanity so my kids could grow up and experience their childhoods together,” I thought to myself after I got off the phone with her.
That is basically how life with two kids under two-years-old is going… There is constant breast feeding and there are constant tantrums. There are many belly laughs and there are many cries (mainly from the kiddos — I’ve kept it together pretty surprisingly well.) There is basically no shortage of emotion here.
Some days start off with smiles, hugs and kisses. Others start off with cries and tantrums. Some days are much more hectic than others but all days are filled with love.
I’ve learned to let go of expectation and accept having little control over how the days go. I’m learning patience is truly a virtue and is key to feeling in control over my emotions. If I am patient with myself in my mothering role and with the kids in their kids roles then I am much calmer and feel better (AKA less guilty).
These are the days, though. I know I’ll look back and wish for them again. So, I wouldn’t trade any of these days… not even the hard ones.