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As I was enjoying my weekend here in Hawaii with Timmy (i.e. surprise news of a Big Island trip, Lanikai beach, Lanikai Juice, North Shore, Chinaman’s Hat, the Commissary & Whole Foods), I realized: For the first time in my life, I am not positive about what my next step is. I’ve accepted a job in Chicago but it’s contingent upon passing the bar the first time. I’m currently living in Hawaii with Tim but I’d have to leave to get ready for my move. And regardless, there’s a chance he’ll be deploying. But if he doesn’t and I don’t wind up in Chicago – do I stay here to study or head back home and study there, and would we live in NY or NJ? And what about a job for me?? It’s all very scary and those questions stress me out. But I’ve made the choice not to dwell on them because it’s out of my hands right now. So as stressful as it can be, I’m actually RELIEVED. I’m relieved to have this down time. To have this quality time with T. To be living in this paradise. I’m choosing to soak it all in and enjoy this life right now. I’m choosing not to stress about the future. I’m choosing to be (as) carefree (as I can be). The future will inevitably come and decisions will be made. Everything will work out. One thing is for certain – this experience of living in Hawaii with my love is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I won’t waste it worrying. I will embrace the uncertainty that lies ahead to savor every single moment here. Image may contain: cloud, mountain, sky, outdoor, nature and water

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As most of you know, I will be in Hawaii for the next couple of months. Excited is an understatement as to how I’m feeling.

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Sunrise at Kailua Beach Park, May 2012

I’m not quite sure how I’ll fare with the bugs, though last time I fought my fears and was a bug-killing machine in no time. I had little choice when Tim was at work. Tim will be working when I go this time around, obviously. And I don’t know what I’ll do with my time. I can’t see myself being able to spend hours at home doing nothing day after day. I’ve thought about volunteering or getting a part-time job while he’s working – call me crazy. Problem is, he works nights. Maybe I’ll just have a lot of blogging time on my hands. I should probably realize that this is one of the last times I’ll have to relax like this before starting a quite hectic and stressful career. So maybe I should just relax. Yes, yes that’s probably what I’ll do.

Anyway – to the point of this post.

I’ve decided I won’t be a muploading (mobile uploading) machine when I’m with Tim. Life and my time with him is too precious and too fleeting. Soooo, I’m going to try to do what I did in May – keep my phone at bay. Take photos, of course. But either upload a photo as is or simply enjoy the moment rather than spend 10 minutes picking a filter when I could be enjoying 10 minutes of time with him. (Sidenote: As much as I love technology, it’s a bit sad that I even feel the need to think about it this much.)

MAYBE that’s what I’ll do when he’s at work – mupload like crazy! The only difference is my instagram uploads will be a whole lot of #latergram’s, meaning they won’t be posted in the moment. They’ll be posted hours or days later.

Photos will be up, though, and I will still be posting.

Aloha!

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