Moments of Musing

Dreams: Scattered

Filed Under: life, positivity //

 
Sometimes I’m hard on myself. It usually simply takes thinking about finances to get me to question all of my decisions. Shouldn’t I be making more money? Should I have taken on law school debt? Was moving 100s of miles from loved ones worth it? Should I have just followed Tim and let him stay in the military? After all… I’ve always dreamed of being able to stay home with my kids (when the time comes).

And then I take a step back. I breathe in. And I remember why I’ve done everything I have. How every step of my life has gotten me here. How I am pretty much on track with my childhood “dream” life timeline. Shouldn’t I just enjoy all of these accomplishments now? 
 
I’ve decided the answer is yes. While I continuously plan for the future, I will embrace my scattered dreams. I will try my best to use them to create the ultimate future I dream of.  It’s okay that I have many different goals that might not seem to match up. Life is for exploring. Exploring new places. New people. New opportunities.


But for now, I will remember that I’m in my mid-20s. Many people have less than I do.  It’s important that I be grateful. And acknowledge that I’m still figuring life out — which is okay. Because really, has anyone ever figured life “out”? Find me the person who has and I’ll give you … all my law school debt 😉
 

 
  Happy weekend! 

Doubt your doubts

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My stomach does a little flip every morning when I walk in to work and hear “Good morning counsel.” Because I am at 25-years-old doing what I dreamed about doing when I was 15. 
Some days I want to tear my hair out. Some days, like today, I’m super duper nervous. But I try to think happy thoughts and know I can and will do great.
 
Most days this whole experience just feels surreal, and I think a large part of this is because of doubts I had (and that sometimes still creep up). 
Doubts about getting into law school . . .
Doubts about getting into a “good” law school . . . 
Doubts about passing my classes, doubts about graduating with a job . . . 
Doubts about becoming an attorney . . . 
And especially doubts that I would get the opportunity to do my job. 
With each doubting experience, I learned to trust myself and my abilities more and my faith in my potential to succeed skyrocketed. Most importantly, I realized I am capable.  
I’ve learned to fight my fears and my doubts, and to simply believe in myself.  
After all, we must believe in ourselves before others can believe in us.
 
Some Monday motivation 🙂

Look Around You

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This weekend I got together with coworkers for the first time. It was nice. And then I hopped in a taxi and was home within 5-10 minutes. I absolutely love city living.
Sometimes, though, I do get pangs of homesickness. Not so much for NYC — though it is a kickass place — as for my loved ones. So when I do get those feelings, I hop in my elevator and go to the roof. This is my view.

I look around and see this … and I am reminded of the beauty that surrounds me and suddenly I feel all better.

Oh, and then I looked out my window because I heard Christmas music. Lo and behold, the Magnificent Mile Light Festival Parade comes down my street.

I love it here.

 

You-spiration

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“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
 
“Always be a first rate version of yourself and not a second rate version of someone else.”
― Judy Garland 
 
“About all you can do in life is be who you are. Some people will love you for you. Most will love you for what you can do for them, and some won’t like you at all.”
― Rita Mae Brown 
 
“Don’t compromise yourself – you’re all you have.”
― John Grisham, The Rainmaker 
 
 “Find out who you are and do it on purpose.”
― Dolly Parton
 
“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”
― Oscar Wilde 
 
“There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty.”
― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience 
 
Readers, stay true to YOU!
 

Love Cures

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To those of you whom I have not really gotten back to – I apologize for being a bit absent from here. Recently, life sent me on a roller coaster. And not the amusement ride kind – I like those. They’re fun. This one was not fun. It was emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically draining. But all along I had love. Of God, my family, Tim and closest friends.
“We are partners for life.”

“You are our baby.”

“You will be stronger.”

“You’re an amazing person.”

“I am here for you every step of the way.”

“You will always be our little girl.”
They are the best support system I could ever have and I am forever grateful for them. 
I love each of those who stood by me very, very much. And I’m not sure how well they know that their love has helped me in ways I could never explain. 
Their love helps me to heal.