Moments of Musing

Find the positive

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Oftentimes when I’m feeling inadequate, sad, or just plain pathetic, I am too hard on myself. I pick at all of the negatives. But when I’m done with my pity party for one, I look for the positives. 
 
For me, focusing on the positives was the most helpful while studying for the bar. While studying, I suffered some of my lowest lows, such as crying in the middle of Times Square alone and having people look at me, presumably worried about my wellbeing wondering what the heck happened. I was a bit of a mess. I wore only gym clothes for the month of July. I stepped outside, maybe, a handful of times. I thought I was on the verge of panic and anxiety attacks at times. I know I was not alone, though, as many of my peers went through emotional roller coasters, as well.
 
Now, I don’t know what the future holds. What I do know is that I gave it my all and it is now out of my hands. And there is positive in all of it. I was worked to my utmost intellectual ability. I put my 100% into something. 
 
Another positive of this was the reminder that I have the absolute BEST support system possible. Through my all tears and self-doubt, their faith in me did not waiver. Here are some ways my family and friends came to my rescue:
 
  T sent me a new cuddle buddy.

 
  My best friend Luana bought me uplifting prints, including this one of my favorite quotes.

T sent me a mug to drink coffee out of with cookies … and my brother brought home cookies later that day.

My dad bought me home 3 bags of DARK chocolate goodies.

I woke up one day to my index cards having been cut and organized by my mom, who also helped me study them every night.

P.S. I want to wish my mom a very happy birthday today! 
 
  My best friend from law school and I texted daily to whine reassure each other and uplift each other. And my loved ones were constantly reaching out to me to let me know they believed in me. That was probably the MOST helpful thing anyone could have done for me.

 
 Ultimately, God has a plan and I trust everything will work out the way it’s meant to.
 
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Quarter-life Crisis: Averted!

Filed Under: positivity //

I’d recently been feeling the onsets on a quarter-life crisis. Family and friends would call me crazy for feeling as though I haven’t accomplished much just as I am about to graduate law school. Is law school a great accomplishment? Of course. Should I be proud? Certainly. And I am. I did not even think I could get into school let alone a great school. BUT I could not shake the feeling that graduating without an employment and life plan would render my accomplishment null and void. Time and time again I’d question if I’m good enough or have what it takes if no job, especially THE job I wanted, seemingly wanted to hire me. Well, here I am to tell you that life has been nothing short of amazing lately.
God is great. 
I think I’m still in shock and trying to be cautious. I’ve always been a person who tries to keep things in perspective so I try not to be “overhappy” or overjoyed of fear that something will fall out of place. Nevertheless, I am very excited beyond words to share the news that has averted my crisis! 
 
It looks like I’m EMPLOYED with my DREAM job and just might be MOVING this year … !



Which also allows me extra time in Hawaii this summer/fall:



 
 AND enables me to move my baby brother into college  🙂
 
My and Tim’s relationship is just 1/3 away from being a civilian, or at least non-active duty, relationship!




& speaking of Tim, he’s HERE … 
talk about excitement overload! We have much to celebrate 🙂

 
 
*** Please excuse my bloggy absence during his visit*** 
& be sure to check out my instagram, which I will be updating much more frequently
 
 
Linkups: Weekend Shenanigans & I<3Bloglovin
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Keeping Perspective

Filed Under: grateful, perspective, positivity //

T informed me that there is a Sailor who became separated from the Sailor’s unit during an open ocean training mission in Hawaii earlier this week. (See Navy Sailor Missing off Kaena Point, Oahu and UPDATE: Coast Guard, Navy, local crews continue search for missing sailor)
It helps me keep perspective that no matter how far T is right now, any distance is better than never having met him or not having him in my life. So today, I am grateful for everyone and everything I have in life no matter how difficult trivial issues might seem the moment they pop up.
My thoughts and prayers go out to the Sailor’s family xo